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hospital again & Miracle Dr

The pain got too bad 

monday morning and I woke up after the night that i thought would never end. The pain was so bad i hadn’t got much sleep all night. mum wrote in her diary “you can see her holding her head and making groaning noises even when asleep”. 
I woke pleading for help I couldn’t go on like this I can cope with alot of pain but this was beyond that. 
I feel so so sorry for mum – she feels helpless like she cant do anything. She doesn’t realise her cuddles and just being there is all I need from her. Just like all my friends. I feel so bad that I cant do stuff with them and that we had so much planned this summer that couldn’t be done but they come over and spend time and they don’t ever say a bad word. I love them so much – they all give me strength.
sometimes though nothing can beat the security of medical staff and sometimes the pain get so so bad and this is where i was now… the pain was where I could no longer cope. 
Mum called the ambulance and I ended up in margate hospital. We waited in A&E an hour before being spoken to by a dr we went through the whole story again. An attack came on and luckily the oxygen helped take the pain down a bit this time. They said they were going to admit me and get me to see the pain team in the next day. After a almost sign of relief that we were going to get some help  1/2 hour later they came and told me i was being discharged…. basically there was no bed space. They said I have an appointment in Dover for the pain team on wednesday. 

I was so so concerned and that was it i was at breaking point. I couldn’t take it much longer. How could i possibly get to dover being in the pain I was in? 
We were sitting outside the hospital now – we had to wait for a friend to come and pick us up as they were not even concerned with how we were going to get home with me in t he stat i was.. I thought the NHS was a caring service…. How wrong i was. 
We eventually got home and the next couple of days nothing really changed. 
Then the day of the Dover appointment came. It was about 1 and 1/2 hours drive from us and I was not even strong enough to be out of bed. We packed the car with pillows blankets and morphine syringes and my other pills and the oxygen and off we went. I needed two syringes on the way there but survived without a seizure. 

Well what can I say I am glad we went. The dr (tim) was lovely. we spoke to him for an hour and he is the first dr to truly believe the amount of pain im going through and understand it. He was not phased by the answers I was giving him to his questions and diagnosed or sure Cluster headache. (google it, and it will say – “the most painful condition known to man” by medical definition.) I was so relieved that someone understood and took notice of what I was saying and experiencing. The verapamil was put up over the next 2 weeks and told to go up a subsequent three times with two week breaks. He also said I could go back onto my old painkillers as well as the stuff I was on now. He also said that in the future he would like to end me to a guy in London called Chong who is a renowned specialist and the top in the country on cluster headaches. He understood that it not practical I go to London now.

We celebrated with a quick stop at macdonads where I had a iced frappe coffee (i love cold coffee – its definitely my fuel) When we got home I was exhausted and the cycle of headaches and seizures continued. 

My epilepsy consultant phoned us that same evening as we couldn’t go to the appointment as it was the same time as this pain specialist… he wants me to see a specialist in London too – a different one who knows about epilepsy in the regions I have mine. he is trying for an appointment ASAP – (joke as recently we have had a letter stating we are on the waiting list for the waiting list – we should receive an appointment in “several months”). 

My epilepsy consultant was really happy of the cluster headache diagnosis though – it was him that first said about it however was getting no back up from my previous consultant. This dr tim who i saw over-rides them so he is really happy that is getting sorted. despite being a slow process. 


Just knowing what we are fighting helps. 





Great times and bad times

The morning of Jades Prom arrived. We had fat club in the morning (well I was visiting with Linda and Jade – before I get any of you curse me for trying to loose weight – IM NOT)
I woke up that morning knowing the day was going to be a struggle. I took my extra meds and kept my fingers crossed. I dont know how many seizures I had before we went that morning but I was close to a big one before we left I know. Thankfully It didnt happen.
We arrived at fat club and i recognised alot of faces from facebook and people Id spoken to via Linda. It was Lovely and really friendly.
There was a display going on and I took a look.

2lbs of fat !

jelly and cream (or a pint?)

One of the ladys whom I talk to on facebook Pat gave me some harribo… Linda and I were going to try vodka harribo at some point but these ones were to eat too. I had some hoping the sugar would help. 

everyone was lovely. 
During the meeting I started to struggle – I had to result to oxygen but it was running out. We got home and I felt my head start to feel really bad. I took pills, my oxygen and headed to the sofa for a rest. 
Jade was due to have her hair done at 2pm. I wanted to document her prom for her… I had 1 hour to rest and get rid of this headache. Well I did rest but the headache didnt go. 
The next few hours were preperation for jades prom. I took so many photos just of her hair being done.. 
I then went and rested and I really dont know for how long…. when the pain and strange feelings get to this point time passes that is all. I think I slept a little but I dont know.

Jade came down… I was awake and she looked stunning. I grabbed all the energy I could and my cameras and started snapping. We went outside and took some beautiful pictures and then I was honoured to travel to the prom with her… I took more pictures too. I was struggling the whole way but I love taking photos and it was Jades big day and she was so pretty.
When we got home however I dropped the camera and tried to edit some pics. In the end I had to resort to bed but I never got there. I went into status epilepticus and dont remember much I remember waking uo between a couple of seizures and Linda holding my hand, she will never know how much that helped. It was weird cos normally I can hear alot more than i could this time… everything was too distant and too scrambled. I struggled as much as I could to get up and stop but the seizures kept coming. I was taken by ambulance to Grantham hospital and I woke up again in resus at Grantham General Hospital. I couldnt undersand the dr, and what I could understand he wasnt listening…. my case is quite complex and they never seemed to understand. There was one really nice nurse who helped. I had a few tests and they gave me some medication and i was told to sleep…. yeah right ok so i slept, and they would wake me up for blood pressure,.. so id sleep again and the bin would bang down so loud i ended up having another seizure. In the end once id recovered from that seizure I self discharged myself. we called linda and she came and got us. (THANK YOU SO MUCH).

in Grantham hospital