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Hospital again.

Saturday morning I woke up and the pain was yet again intense. I went straight into multiple seizures.
Drs say that Status epilepticus is the most dangerous state for epilepsy sufferes. It takes so many lives. A person with epilepsy may experiance this once or twice in their lifetime with the disease… So far Ive been in status over 20 times and now 3 times in 3 days. life is getting scary.

I ended up having the paramedic and ambulance out and remember waking up with a IV line in which is very unusual as people normally cant get a line in. I was in and out of seizures for over an hour and I woke up in Kent and Canterbury hospital. It felt safer to be at home hospital though. somehow I cant explain. When the seizures stopped I was taken to a ward and had to wait to make sure the meds were working. I was given lots of extra meds and then claire and her dad came to get us to bring us home.
I was supoesto do a gig that morning but obviousley had to cancel. However it was the ball tonight and I was not going to not go. I had determined face on! My friends were down and I had the dress, the tickets and the will power I was going to go.

My best friend Lara came round early and helped me get ready, she managed to turn my palor complection into a 1900’s lady! without her doing my hair and makeup i really dont think i would have got there it was exhausting and i wasnt doing anything.  We were all ready I couldnt wear my heels as i was having issues anyway but my dress was so long no one could see my sandal flats ha ha.

We went to the ball and had a fab time… I done some dancing with mark and the girls and we all had a good time. we even had official pics taken. The night went on and i started getting hotter than normal. My eye kept watering. We had just been given an award for best costume and i needed to sit down. 
I went and tried to find a seat, feeling weak and wobbly my head was pounding and i was all a bit blurred. I can remember Abi saying lets go outside and I felt cooler. I thought i started to recover a little and then that little sensation that I dread. I woke up on the grass. I can remember being told to squeeze hands and I think i did. i hope i did. Claire had honed pauline as arranged and we managed to get home. I knew I was in for trouble and I was right. That night when I got home and everyone had gone all hell broke loose and I was in so so much trouble. I just wanted to enjoy myself. I got the “you could have killed yourself for pushing it” well maybe i could but then If i dont do things im stuck indoors and then what is the point of living? none. Id rather die doing something I enjoy and love.